{"id":29706,"date":"2023-02-17T10:57:08","date_gmt":"2023-02-17T10:57:08","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.shows4.com\/?p=29706"},"modified":"2023-02-17T10:57:49","modified_gmt":"2023-02-17T10:57:49","slug":"selena-gomez-survived-social-media-and-with-her-new-music-is-ready-to-leave-darkness-behind","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.shows4.com\/?p=29706","title":{"rendered":"Selena Gomez Survived Social Media and, With Her New Music, Is Ready to Leave Darkness Behind"},"content":{"rendered":"<div>Selena Gomez, who appears on our 2023 Hollywood cover, spent years feeling distressed by her Disney-cultivated fa\u00e7ade. But since her 2018 bipolar diagnosis, and her decision to share her mental health struggles in last year\u2019s Apple TV+ documentary Selena Gomez: My Mind &#038; Me, the singer, actor, and producer (Selena + Chef, Only Murders in the Building) has felt liberated. Ahead, excerpts from a conversation about fears, self-esteem, and freedom. <\/p>\n<p>Selena Gomez: I definitely feel free of it. Sometimes I get triggered. It\u2019s not that I\u2019m ashamed of my past, it\u2019s just that I\u2019ve worked so hard to find my own way. I don\u2019t want to be who I was. I want to be who I am. In the documentary, someone close to you questions your decision to go public with your bipolar diagnosis. Why did you go forward anyway?<\/p>\n<p>I\u2019m just so used to censoring myself that it was (a) me wanting to let go and (b) if they\u2019re telling me to be quiet about it, that\u2019s not good because that\u2019s genuinely not the place I\u2019m in anymore.  Maybe it was weird and uncomfortable for other people, and obviously I was worried, but I think it finally allowed me to start being open about everything. It\u2019s not that I was kind of sad\u2014I actually have things that are chemically imbalanced in my brain, and I need to understand what that is, take care of it, and nurture it. I\u2019m not ashamed of it. I don\u2019t ever feel, even for five seconds, that I\u2019m crazy. My thoughts tend to ruminate, but it\u2019s up to me to be proud of who I am and to take care of myself.<\/p>\n<p>I don\u2019t want people to ever have anybody tell them, \u201cDon\u2019t say that because it\u2019ll seem bad. 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